Collected thoughts of a month a of thoughts collected

I miss you…

Hmm……. all my form 4 friends back home in Malaysia are enjoying the end of exams… I feel like feeling jealous at how they can see each other everyday… I can find friends over here, sure, but I can’t find really good friends who I can really talk with. I can talk enough things with most of the people here, but not about personal things. Why? The main reason being that none of them seem to be Christians. Enough of them mock me for having a bible in my room or for going to church on Sunday. Nah, that doesn’t affect my going to church or my reading the bible. Just the fact that I can’t find really good friends here. I emphasize on my boarding house. In the school there are some good Christians, but I don’t see them that much… My main bulk of friends would come from my boarding house…

Life’s tough. But then, who said it would be easy? Would I have seen ahead to where I am now? No, I do not regret the decision made that I might come here. But I guess here is where all of your support back home will strengthen me… It’s really busy over here, but in the small moments of quiet, I do feel lonely. Lonely for people whom I can chat with properly without hearing swear words. Or a conversation which does not involve sexual things. A lot of the people here are perverted… What do they make out of relationships?

And another thing here is that enough of them just seem to be playful and not serious all the time. I mean, sure, it’s good to be playful, but there should be time for seriousness too. I have yet to have a deeper conversation than about ‘how the construction muddied up the green grass outside the boarding house’ with my housemates. Whenever I’m not busy and I’m in the boarding house, I can hardly find any seriousness…

But I know that it’s not by a chance that I’m over here…

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